The Hardest Thing To Do


In my previous post, I wrote about the difficulty in completing the tax return document for my startup. Well, this continues.

I have been trying to get a tax consultant to no avail. One of them refused to work with me since the startup has no revenue. The others just didn’t reply. Yesterday I tried to work on it on my own and it was not easy. In addition to that, I was having an anxiety attack. I was worried that I would get fined.

Out of desperation, I reached out to multiple tax consultants. I spent hours in all the online forums about tax in Germany. I fell into the internet black hole.

When I wrote my journal last night, I remembered an old friend who has a financial consultancy company. He gave me tons of information when I tried to set up the startup. I was hesitant to reach out to him because he already helped me so much. As I had an internal discussion in my head, my eyes caught the label of the pen that I use to write my journal. It was the name of his company.

I took it as a sign from the universe to contact him. It was such a weird feeling trying to write the email for him. I was trying to overcome the feeling of shame. Shame for bothering him, shame for not going anywhere with the startup, shame for making the wrong decision with the tax. All the scenarios in my head started to pop up. Then I took a deep breath and hit the send button. I felt relief.

It is simple in theory, but asking for help is definitely not that easy. And most of the times, it is necessary. 2021 has already started with a hell of a lesson. Many more to come!

Be strong enough to stand alone, smart enough to know when you need help, and brave enough to ask for it.

Ziad K. Abdelnour
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